Sunday, 31 August 2014

Everything's Changing...

For me, September has always felt like more of a ‘New Year’ than January, probably because of the way the academic years were arranged at school and university.

So with that in mind, tomorrow is day number one of a new year.

I’m in a very, very different place to where I was this time last year. I’m not going to ramble on, but I want to highlight a couple of things so I can look back at it this time next year.


I’m returning to this lovely little blog space, having fallen out of love with it for a while when my head was feeling muddled by a lot of things.

I’m making a lot of plans work-wise, looking ahead and pushing myself.

I’m finally learning to drive, and with my theory done I just need to get the practical test out of the way.

I’m no longer in the relationship I was in this time last year. It had lasted for five and a half years, but you’re a very different person when you’re 16 compared to when you’re 22, and for this place I’m in now, certain things were no longer working.

I’m making huge steps forward with my anxiety. In about October it really returned with a vengeance, and I had a pretty awful time of it. It’s taken a lot of support, a lot of hard work and a lot of pushing myself, but I’m feeling in a better place with it than I have for a long time.

I’m aware of who my friends are. The true friends. Because whilst my anxiety took control of a fairly large portion of the last year or so, it actually taught me a lot about myself, and the people I have around me. Some of my friends went, and still do go, above and beyond to help with my panicking and troubles with eating, and the strength of some of those friendships now has been overwhelming.


So.

Onwards and upwards.

Something I’ve heard a lot recently is ‘I feel like I’ve got my old Sophie back’. From my parents, other family members, friends…

But it’s not just the old Sophie. It’s a Sophie who has learned a lot about herself, who has had some pretty rubbish times, but through overcoming those has learned what she wants out of each day.
And for those lessons I can surely only be grateful.

Tomorrow brings with it a ‘New Year’. I’m 22, I’m finally beginning to learn who I am, and I’m ready for everything that lies ahead.



Let’s go.







Wednesday, 2 July 2014

Pause: Netflix Time

I can't write a long post tonight, because I'm on a date with Netflix.

Oh, Netflix, how we love thee.

My new series of choice is American Horror Story after having it recommended so many times... I never go for horror films or anything, but decided to give episode 1 a try, and now can't stop watching!

The problem with Netflix is that it knows exactly how to occupy you for lovely long periods of time. It autoplays the next episode...


Right I'm stopping watching now.

'Next episode begins in 15 seconds...

...14...

I need to go and wash my hair.

...13...

...12...

I should probably do that washing up.

..........

...3...

Maybe I could read a book.

...2...

...1...'

Oh go on then!


Netflix, you are a procrastination enabler, a binge-watching tempter...

And the thing is, we all love it. The amount of times I've seen people ask Twitter what their next series should be is mad!

So

I need to return to the haunted mansion and make sure Violet managed to get out in time.

Over and out, blog world, and I'll see you tomorrow.

And by the way:

What series should I watch next?!

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

The Spanish Countdown

Just a quick post tonight as I'm trying to sort through a lot of things all at the same time, and get some work done for my marketing course.

So.

Here's what's on my mind.

My baby sister is moving to MADRID.

Well she's not a baby, she's 18, but that's not really the point...



I'm unbelievably hugely excited for her, and she will have the most incredible time...

But yesterday dad booked her one-way flight to Madrid for September and I suddenly felt a little bit funny in my tummy.

That's a whole other country. You have to go on a plane to get there.

Isn't that weird? She's always been in my house, or down the road, or a short train away when I was at university.



It's going to take some adjusting, and dad has begun to call her 'Kittypleasedontgo'. She's flying out on Sunday for a month, then coming home for a month, and then it's the big move!

She's an adventurer and an explorer and I know she'll love every minute.

And of course, it's an excuse for us all to fit in some little Spanish holidays!

Monday, 30 June 2014

Monday, Monday

Well, Monday, here we are again. The start of a working week, the first early morning after the weekend...

Mondays have a bad reputation.

But recently I've warmed to them.

Because yes, we have to get up early and go to work, but it also feels like a weekly opportunity to have a bit of a 'fresh start'.

We're all guilty of putting good intentions on the back burner, or saying we'll start tomorrow, next week, next month, next year...

I'm trying to view Mondays as a brand new little opportunity every week. Every week I want to think of one new thing to implement, whether it's to do more exercise, ring one friend for a catchup, or spend longer reading a book.

By introducing little habits in isolation, but often, I'm hoping I will be able to stick to a wider range than failing with those ridiculously long lists of things we 'SHOULD' do on January 1st.

So there we have it: every Monday is now an opportunity. Every Monday is another little fresh start. Every Monday is a chance to start a better week than the week we've just had.

I've been making friends with Mondays, and I think very soon we'll become good pals.

Wednesday, 11 June 2014

Let's chat about the weather...

Blogger is being so slow this evening, or is that just for me?

Either way, it's getting a little annoying and not uploading my pictures so... Let's chat.

Let's chat about the weather!

How terribly British.



In all seriousness, though, how weird/temperamental/hot/wet/amazing is the weather at the moment?

It's indecisive, definitely. Yesterday, there was a torrential downpour and hailstorm at 3.30pm, then I was melting in the sunshine on my walk home at 5pm.

And it's muggy. That heat that sort of hangs in the air.

We've had gorgeously sunny days, but when it's more overcast it's humid and muggy.

I leave the house with layers, suncream, a scarf, water, and an umbrella!

I'd love it to just make up its mind...

Somebody tentatively predicted a three-month sunshine summer yesterday. If that happens, I will be one very happy little blogger.

Stick around Mr Sunshine, it's always heavenly to see you.


Tuesday, 10 June 2014

The Homecoming

Just a quick post to tell you that today I am EXCITED.

That is because one of my favourite pals is coming home! You may remember our trip out for her birthday? Well she's just done 10 weeks of volunteering in Honduras and is now back/in the air on the way back...

She's off to walk Hadrian's Wall next, but we then have lots of summer plans to get on with! 



Which got me thinking yesterday... isn't it interesting how different some friends can be?

Laura has done 10 weeks in Honduras and is going to do 6 months in Peru.

Emily graduated and buzzed off to live in France.

Jagoda is Polish, and always whizzing back and forth between York and Poland.

Anthea has lived in South Africa, Singapore, Germany, and now the UK.

Jen boogied on down to live in Cambridge. I'm fully aware this isn't a different country, but it feels like MILES away when she used to live a couple of minutes away!


And then there's the homebirds.

Alice has done amazingly at her occupational therapy degree in York, but is ready to set up and start working back near home.

Hope is living and working right nearby, impressing the PR world.

I'm working in the village I grew up in, and living about a 10 minute drive away, having come back to the area after graduating from the University of York.


So even just that little collection of some of the wonderful people I call friends shows how differently we all now spend our days. Yet whenever we sit down with a drink and some cake (there's usually cake, it's kind of a necessity) we can natter away for hours.

We're all different for a reason, and I wouldn't have it any other way.


Monday, 9 June 2014

I've Been Thinking...

Hi there. It's been a while.

I took a bit of a pause from the blog, and didn't do much tweeting or anything either.

Because I've been thinking.

I've had a lot of thoughts in my head.

They spin and twist and get all muddled up.

Sometimes I feel a little confused.

So I've been taking some time to think. Some time to wonder. Some time to explore.

Some time to explore my own thoughts, feelings, wants, wishes...

For life, for work, for friendships.

Thinking about what truly matters. What doesn't matter so much.

What and who do I want to be?

These are thoughts that will never go away. The joy of life is that it is constantly changing, there are opportunities, there are changes, and there are chances to learn and grow.

I know this is a little vague, obscure, nothingy... But it's what I wanted to say.

That's where I've been - just thinking. Planning. Researching.

And now it's time to turn some of those plans into actions. To move forwards, to learn, to laugh and to explore.

The blogging is back. The twitter love is back. The excitement is back.

I've been sorting through the swirling thoughts in my head, and made some of them seem more tangible.

Watch this space.


Thank you for reading xxx
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